the feeling of hurt...

It really hurts so much...

I knew he lied to me..
I knew he does not love me...
I knew he is using me...
I knew he is not treating me good..
but......
y....
it hurts so much...
because i found i had deeply fall to him...
it hurts so much that make me cried everytime
what i can be do is crying silently there every night
tears by tears drop from eyes
although it is already 1 month but i couldn't forget him
it is killing me

i really hope to find a person who care me
love me for all my weaknesses and admire who am i
im suffering here